This morning it really started to snow. It was so pretty :) I grabbed my camera and ran outside to take photos. This is one of them. I'm really hoping for a white Christmas this year!
I know I haven't been posting, I'm having a rough time right now dealing with the 1 year anniversary of my dad's passing. I just miss him and my mom so much. It's really hard not having him. He was always there for me, now I just feel so lost without him. After losing my mother, him and I became really close. I got used to having him to talk to and now without him and my mom, I feel so alone and sad. I seriously think I might go talk to someone, because I'm just not dealing with it that well.
It's not easy to lose both of your parents to cancer. I get so angry sometimes that they haven't found a cure. I know I shouldn't, but I do. It just seems so unfair.
Luckily I have my photography, It helps me focus on something other than the pain of not having my parents. I would be lost without photography.
On a more pleasant note, I am excited for Christmas. I already gave hubby his big present from me. I know, It's like not even close to Christmas, BUT I couldn't help myself! I knew he would love it, So I couldn't contain myself. What am I saying lol I NEVER can contain myself. Every single year I end up giving him all of his presents early! I need to wait until Christmas Eve to buy him more presents or else I'll give him those as well, Like I said I just cannot control the urge at all!
Well anyway, I have so much to do today so I better get off here.
Happy Holidays!!
With Love,
C
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Sigh. I hope they find a cure for cancer soon as well. I lost both my grandfather and my father in law to cancer, and although I wasn't as close to them as you would've probably been to your parents, it was still hard trying to move on from the loss. Sometimes I think the term "It gets better everyday" is just a complete lie, but you do manage to feel a little better eventually.
ReplyDeleteBtw, that's a beautiful photo! I can totally feel the Christmas spirit just by looking at it. :)
Both my mom and grandmother are breast cancer survivors. My grandfather wasn't so lucky with lung cancer. He's been gone well over 15 years and I still miss him all the time.
ReplyDeleteI didn't know you had this blog, it's zel from thisgirlispoison.net! This is my book blog (along with my alias, so you don't get confused)!